Week 24

Dear Baby,
This week you’re the size of a cantaloupe! At 24 weeks, you’re getting more and more ready for life outside. You’re starting to gain weight and add adorable baby fat to your little body. Your skin is also starting to change from transparent to opaque. You have hair, but at the moment it’s white. The color will change soon, and I can’t wait to see if you’re going to be blonde like your brother or brunette like me.  

Right now I’m just trying to manage my gestational diabetes. My after meal numbers are great, but my fasting numbers are all over the place. I’m trying to get help for it, but that’s turning out to be more difficult than expected. Because of several reasons, I’m falling out of love with my midwife and I’m thinking about switching practices. Your dad and I are touring a nearby birth center this week to see if it will be a good fit for us.

I feel you moving more and more. Recently I’ve been finding myself grunting from your kicks. Not because they hurt, but because they’re so strong and seemingly out of nowhere that it takes me by surprise. I love feeling you move. I really do. Every time I feel it, it makes me feel close and connected to you. I usually feel you move whenever I’m sitting down and being still. That rarely happens at work, but when I’m home I feel it all the time. I can’t wait for your movements to be strong and consistent enough for Henry to feel it. I can’t wait to see the look on his face.

By the way, your brother is very concerned with how you’re going to come out. He told me the other day that he wants me to be put back together and not broken when you come out. He’s also afraid that your kicks will break me. It’s the cutest thing ever.

I’m working hard to make sure you getting everything that you need, and nothing that you don’t. I’ll continue that trend for the rest of your life. Keep growing (reasonably so) and know that you are beyond loved.



Fasting Blood Sugar Readings

I’m really irritated with my midwife and her whole practice. Since being diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes, I’ve been working really hard on getting every blood sugar reading below where it needs to be. After meal readings need to be under 120 two hours after meals. I’ve been aiming for 110 or less, and I’ve been making it! My breakfast, lunch and dinner readings are fabulous, and predominately under or around 100.
My fasting levels on the other hand…..they’re awful. They range from 88-140, and they need to be under 90. I’ve tried adding a bedtime snack at night. I’ve tried the snack being all protein, a mix of protein and carbs, and all carbs, and it doesn’t seem to matter what I eat, my fasting numbers are terrible.

Realizing that this is a problem, I contacted my midwife about it and asked for some help – specifically for me to be referred to a nutritionist so that we can work out a plan to get the numbers under control. The first time I asked, I was told that we would discuss it at my next appointment. As my appointment at the time was less than a week away, I was ok with that. At that appointment, I was told that I’d be referred to a nutritionist.

A week later, when I still hadn’t heard anything about the referral, I emailed my midwife to ask for an update. I was then sent an email by the woman who does all of the office referrals stating that I was signed up for an “intro to gestational diabetes class.” Um…I know what gestational diabetes is. I’ve had it before. I remember how I’m supposed to eat, and I know how to use my meter. These are all the things you learn in the class. I know, cause I’ve sat through it before.

I emailed my midwife back, and told her this is not what I wanted. I want a one on one meeting with a nutritionist to help make a personal plan for how to control my fasting numbers.

Two days later, I get an email back from her stating that my fasting numbers are controlled by my metabolism, and if a protein snack at night hasn’t helped, then only medication will. And, that we’ll discuss this more at my next appointment. My next appointment is in 3 weeks.

So, am I to understand that my blood sugars from dinner to breakfast will continue to be out of control for the next three weeks, and my midwife is ok with it? All totaled this will be 6 weeks of my fasting numbers being haywire, and I’ve had no help, after repeatedly asking for it.

I’m to the point that I’m thinking of switching practices.  

Week 19

Dear Baby,
You’re as big as a mango! You’re developing a protective coating on your skin called vernix that will help keep you warm, and waterproofed while you live in a nice watery environment for the next 20ish weeks. Your brain is also developing like mad right now. Your senses are all developing like crazy. You’re working on your hearing, sight, taste, smell and touch.

I have some new developments this week. My midwife has asked me to check my blood sugars a few times a week. I’m to check my fasting and 2 hours after breakfast. I’ve noticed that on active days my readings are normal, but on days where I’m not active, they’re awful. So, it has me thinking that I might be heading the gestational diabetic route again. Time will tell. I’ve also started to develop restless leg syndrome at night, which is just irritating.    

I’m doing my hypnobirthing exercises several times a week. I need to bump it up to every day. But, I’m getting to the point where total relaxation is getting easier and easier to achieve. I need to find more listening pieces, or order a few from the actual website. So far I’m really liking everything that it has to offer. I wish I could afford to take an actual class, but it’s just not in the cards. So, I’ll have to piece together what I can and hope that it’s enough.

I’m not sure if it’s because I’ve done this once before, or not, but this pregnancy seems easier than it was when I was pregnant with Henry. My morning sickness wasn’t as bad (still comes up every now and then, but not often), my blood pressure has stayed perfect so far, and I feel like I have more energy than I did in my second trimester than I did with Henry. Hopefully things will continue to go smoothly.

Remember that I love you! Keep growing,


Week 16-17

Dear Baby,

Sorry for combining two weeks.  I’ve been on winter break and I honestly haven’t wanted to touch a piece of technology.  Last week you were the size of an avocado, and this week you’ve grown to the size of an onion.  The amazing transformation that’s happened is that you can hear now!  The tiny bones in your ears are forming and allow you to hear my voice, and perhaps even others as well.  Your hair is growing, and your taste buds are developing.  You’re also finally starting to bulk up by adding some fat to your body.
What’s been up with me the past two weeks?  My bronchitis seems to be finally getting better.  I’m still coughing and sneezing some, but I’ve finished my last round of antibiotics, so I’m hoping I’ll be done with this crud once and for all.  I’ve been having some crazy dreams….really weird ones.  Everything I’ve read says that it’s normal, and fairly common, but it’s still weird that it’s a pregnancy symptom.  I also broke down and bought a body pillow.  I’d been sleeping pretty badly, waking up sore and stiff, and ever since I got it, I’ve been sleeping much better.  It takes up over half the bed….but your dad promises that he doesn’t mind, at least not that much.
We’ve got your nursery pretty much laid out.  It’s going to be cramped and over crowded, but there’s not much we can do about that.  I’ve also got out a bunch of your brothers baby clothes and washed them so that they’ll be ready for you.  I just need to buy some baby hangers so I can hang up a bunch of stuff.  I’m really excited for our ultrasound next week!  I can’t wait to see you on the big screen!
In other news I’ve been doing some reading on how I can prepare for your birth the best that I can.  I’m reading “HypnoBirthing” and one of my coworkers has offered to let me borrow her HypnoBaby scripts when she’s done with them.  I really want a calm, peaceful and natural birth for you.  I tired to have one with your brother, but it didn’t workout quite like I wanted.  We hired the same doula, and I’m going to try for a water birth again.  I’m really excited about doing this all again.  And, I’m so excited about being your mom.
I love you!  Keep growing,

Week 15

Dear Baby

You’re now the size of a navel orange!  According to The Bump, you’re moving a ton, and I’m fairly certain that I feel you at least a couple times a day.  All of your joints and limbs are now moving like they should.  You might also be hiccuping in there, which is just super cute, I can’t wait until I get to feel those too.
I was at the doctor at the beginning of the week (why your post is late) and I was diagnosed with bronchitis made worse by asthma, which is just awesome.  So, I’ve been spending Christmas week on antibiotics and lounging on the sofa, and just basically trying to get better.  I think I’m finally on the mend, though, so there’s the bright side.
My belly is getting bigger and you can tell that it’s a definitely a baby bump.  We also have an appointment on your dad’s birthday for our 18 week ultrasound.  I’m so excited to see you!  We’ve also decided that we’re not going to find out your sex.  I really want to be surprised!
Also, we’ve hired the same doula who helped me all through my pregnancy with your brother.  I’m so excited to have her on board.  She’s a great lady, and I hope you get to meet her one day!
I’m writing this to you on Christmas day, and I couldn’t help but think all day that you’ll be here to help celebrate Christmas and Hanukkah next year.  I’m so looking forward to seeing everything you’re going to add to our family.  You’re so wanted and so loved.  I can hardly wait the next 5 1/2 months to meet you.
Keep growing.  Love,

Water Water Everywhere……

I have a new symptom that’s somewhat gross, or at least it is to me.  My feet have been so swollen lately that it’s not even funny.  My ankles have rolls…I feel like I’ve been drinking water non stop, but it doesn’t seem to be helping.  Anyway, I take my shoes off as soon as I get home and as I was walking around the house yesterday I felt the fluid in my feet vibrating with each step that I took.  My feet now jiggle as I walk…..ewwww.  And it wasn’t a one time thing, they did it again today.  I know that it’s fluid and it’s not fat, and it’s just my feet and not another part of me, but when you jiggle when you walk (no matter what body part does it) you feel gross and fat.  Not cool man, not cool.

Sciatic Nerve Pain

Oh my goodness…..I don’t even know how to begin to describe this.  My hips hurt.   I’m generally ok in the morning, but as the day goes on it starts to hurt more and more, and usually around 8 or 9 pm it is quite intense.  There are times when I simply can’t move because my hips won’t cooperate.  There have been several instances where I’ve cried out in pain because I simply tried to move.  My brother-in-law calls it “shooting ass pain,” and I have to say he’s pretty much on the mark.  The pain starts deep in the butt cheek and  then radiates down to my knee.  At this point in time it’s my right side that hurts the most, although a couple weeks ago I would have said it was the left.  Sitting on a heating pad helps, as does taking some Tylenol.  The best thing I’ve found is for J to squeeze my hips (commonly referred to as the double hip squeeze).  This feels amazing, but the downside is that it only provides relief while he’s squeezing, and then my hips go right back to being painful when he’s done.  Other than these few things I really have no idea what to do about it.

Has anyone else dealt with sciatic pain and know a way to help relieve it?