Week 34

Dear Baby,
We’ve made it to 34 weeks. It’s really hard to believe how fast things are moving. You’re the size of a butternut squash – which means you’re almost 18 inches long, and around 5 lbs. You’re starting to recognize songs that you hear. I sing to your brother almost every night, and I plan on singing to you as well when you’re born, so hopefully my lullaby’s will be familiar and soothing to you when you finally join us on the outside. I think you’ve also dropped a bit. I have a little more breathing room now, and I feel way more pressure on my lady bits than I did previously. Not sure if you’ve dropped the full way or not though.

I’ve really upped my walking to just about every night. The rain seems to be the only thing to stop me. I also started doing yoga squats which are great hip openers. Every time I do one, I swear I feel your head sitting right on my cervix. I’m ok with that if it means that it’ll help with effacement and dilation. I’ve been sleeping alright through most of the pregnancy. I usually only get up to pee about once a night, sometimes twice. I’ve found that my body pillow really was one of the best purchases I’ve made in a long time.

I’ve started to wash diapers and other things to get ready for your arrival. I don’t think we have too much more to do before you join us. We still have to install the car seats, but we’re waiting until 37ish weeks do that because of needing the space in the cars. I’m going to pack my hospital bag around 36 weeks – so it’s ready to go just in case. Your nursery is all set up and ready to go. The pack ‘n play is washed and waiting to be set up downstairs. I think for the most part we’re pretty ready for your arrival!

I’m starting to stress over how big you’re getting. I’m wondering if I’m doing enough to keep you small and healthy. I’m terrified of delivering a 9 lb+ baby. One of my friends just delivered a baby over 9 lbs, and that only upped my anxiety. Part of me wants to cut out carbs completely in the hope that you stay little and easily birthable. I have a midwife appointment next week, they’ll measure my tummy, and hopefully it’ll be right on the mark of where it should be.

I’m so excited for your arrival. I hope your birthday comes soon (or at least feel like it will be here soon). I can’t wait to hold you, and snuggle you and get to know you. I love you, keep growing – but reasonably so!




The other day we had our pediatric cardiologist appointment in the morning, and then we had a midwife appointment in the afternoon. I was so happy that J could come with me to both of these.
The pediatric cardiologist appointment took a little over an hour. They assessed me first: weight, height, bp, and asked a bunch of questions about the pregnancy and my medications.  
Then, they took me back to the ultrasound room. The ultrasound took about half an hour (maybe more) and the tech, while quite nice, hardly spoke, and when she did, it was all medical jargon that I didn’t know. So, my stress level was pretty high during the whole thing.
When the tech was done, she left to get the cardiologist. He came in looked at the pictures that the tech took, and then got the ultrasound back out to get a look himself. After about another 10 minutes of silence, he started talking to us and said that everything looked normal. They didn’t see a bright spot, or hole that the previous ultrasounds showed, so it looks like everything resolved itself.  
He went on to say that an ultrasound through me, through the baby might not be totally accurate, and that if anything is found after the baby is born, to ignore this ultrasound and its findings. But, to the best of his knowledge, everything looks perfect.
We were relieved to say the least.
J and I then went out to lunch. And had a nice afternoon out until the midwife appointment.
At the midwife’s office, they got my weight. it’s been the same the last 3 visits. My BP was slightly down at 124/84. When the midwife came in, she used the doppler to listen to the heartbeat. It was around 150 bpm. She measured my fundal height and that was 32 cm. Which is on the large side of normal. As I have GD, on my next visit, I have a midwife appointment, a biophysical ultrasound and a non-stress test. So, I’ll be there a while.
They increased my Metformin Rx because it’s not helping my fasting numbers at all. They’ve been going nowhere but up, which is beyond frustrating. I hate the meformin. The side effects of it are just awful. I’m nauseous again in the morning, and struggle not to throw up. I have awful indigestion that a pepcid can’t even touch. I get extremely fatigued on, and have brain fog almost all the time. And, to top it all off, I started throwing up again because of it and hardly able to eat past the indigestion pain. If the medication was helping, I think it would be one thing and I’d have hope to tough it out. But it’s not helping at all. I finally broke down and emailed my midwife to ask if there’s another Rx that I could switch to that might be easier on my system.
I’m now worried that the baby is going to be too big. I’m really trying to do everything in my power to make sure that I eat only GD approved items, and refrain from eating anything else. I’ve cut all ALL sweets, all added sugar and am on a diet very similar to keto, with a few carb items added in here and there. I’m really curious what the ultrasound is going to say as far as weight for the baby. My next appointment is April 22, so we’ll see I guess.

Week 28

Dear Baby,

This week you’re the size of an eggplant!  You’re starting to add more fat to your tiny frame, and I can sure testify to that!  I feel like I’m hungry all the time!  Your lungs are also fairly mature right now, and that if you were born now, you’d probably make it!  But, let’s keep you cooking for a little while longer, ok?

What’s new with me?  My blood pressure is up, for one.  Yesterday at my midwife appointment it was 138/84.  I’m hoping it’s because I’m a little sick with a cold, and that it’s not pregnancy related.  I guess that we’ll see how it is at my 30 week appointment.   I’ve also been put on a low dose of medication for the gestational diabetes, hopefully this will help with my fasting numbers, and keep you from being too big!

This week I’ve been busy!  I painted the dresser that’s in your nursery.  It was your dad’s from when he was little, so it was pretty beat up.  But, I painted it a super bright red, and it’ll look beautiful with the wall color that we chose, which is a bluish gray.    I’ve also started to take the wall paper border down in your room so that we can paint next week.  Hopefully, the removal won’t tear up the walls too much.

You and I go to the pediatric cardiologist on April 7.  They’ll use a super detailed ultrasound to look at your heart and make sure that it’s perfect and working like it should.  I’m nervous about the appointment.  I really want everything to be ok with you.  I want you to be healthy and happy and have no limitations put on you.  I’m doing everything I can to make sure that you’re getting everything that you could possibly need.

I love you so much!



I had my 28 week midwife appointment yesterday.

They got my weight, which stayed the same since the last two weeks.  I then had my blood pressure taken.  Every reading so far has been a perfect 120/80, this time though, it was 138/84.

It was the first time that I had been taken to an exam room since around week 14.  We listened to the baby’s heart with the doppler, and it was measuring around 160 bpm.  She measured my bump, and I’m measuring in at 29 cm, so pretty close to where I should be.

Then we started talking.  She’s concerned about my blood pressure.  She said that she looked at my chart from my pregnancy with Henry, and that around 30 weeks is where my BP started to go up and get out of control.  So, she had me go for blood work to start checking for preeclampsia.  That word in and of itself is terrifying.  I never did develop it when I was pregnant with Henry, but I think if my pregnancy had gone any longer that I would have.  At this point, I’m not sure if my BP was high because I’m currently a little sick (stupid cold) or if it’s because of the pregnancy.  I’m really hoping that it will go down at my next appointment, but we’ll see.

Next, we started to talk about the gestational diabetes.  She’s concerned that my fasting levels are still too high (around 100), and as the pregnancy progresses, they’re more likely to keep getting higher.  So, she started me on a medication to help with the fasting numbers.  It’s not insulin, but I don’t know the name of the medication yet.  I go and pick it up this afternoon.

I also have an appointment for the pediatric cardiologist.  We go for that ultrasound on April 7 at 11:00, and then almost immediately following, I have a midwife appointment at 2:15 to go over the results.  She told me to ask for the results before we go so we can just take them with us to the appointment.  I’m nervous about this one.  I know that everything is probably going to be just fine, but I’m still worried.  Just thinking that there might be a hole in the baby’s heart causes stress in me like you wouldn’t believe.

Yeah, so, overall I left this appointment feeling overwhelmed and worried.  I hope the appointments on the 7th have better news for us…

Week 24

Dear Baby,
This week you’re the size of a cantaloupe! At 24 weeks, you’re getting more and more ready for life outside. You’re starting to gain weight and add adorable baby fat to your little body. Your skin is also starting to change from transparent to opaque. You have hair, but at the moment it’s white. The color will change soon, and I can’t wait to see if you’re going to be blonde like your brother or brunette like me.  

Right now I’m just trying to manage my gestational diabetes. My after meal numbers are great, but my fasting numbers are all over the place. I’m trying to get help for it, but that’s turning out to be more difficult than expected. Because of several reasons, I’m falling out of love with my midwife and I’m thinking about switching practices. Your dad and I are touring a nearby birth center this week to see if it will be a good fit for us.

I feel you moving more and more. Recently I’ve been finding myself grunting from your kicks. Not because they hurt, but because they’re so strong and seemingly out of nowhere that it takes me by surprise. I love feeling you move. I really do. Every time I feel it, it makes me feel close and connected to you. I usually feel you move whenever I’m sitting down and being still. That rarely happens at work, but when I’m home I feel it all the time. I can’t wait for your movements to be strong and consistent enough for Henry to feel it. I can’t wait to see the look on his face.

By the way, your brother is very concerned with how you’re going to come out. He told me the other day that he wants me to be put back together and not broken when you come out. He’s also afraid that your kicks will break me. It’s the cutest thing ever.

I’m working hard to make sure you getting everything that you need, and nothing that you don’t. I’ll continue that trend for the rest of your life. Keep growing (reasonably so) and know that you are beyond loved.


Blood Sugar Levels So Far

I mentioned at my last midwife appointment that my midwife was giving me one more week to get my blood sugars under control.  I thought I would put a record of what exactly my blood sugar readings have been over the past week.  The parameters for gestational diabetes are as follows:

  • Fasting levels need to be no lower than 60 and no higher than 90
  • Two hours after meals should be no lower than 60 and no higher than 120


  • Fasting: 89
  • Breakfast: 89
  • Lunch: 88
  • Dinner: 90


  • Fasting: 81
  • Breakfast: 94
  • Lunch: 79
  • Dinner: 95


  • Fasting: 85
  • Breakfast: 97
  • Lunch: 94
  • Dinner: 106


  • Fasting: 90
  • Breakfast: 91
  • Lunch: 100
  • Dinner: 94


  • Fasting: 86
  • Breakfast: 118
  • Lunch: 103
  • Dinner: 116


  • Fasting: 86
  • Breakfast: 107
  • Lunch: 115
  • Dinner: 103


  • Fasting: 90

Everything so far has been within range, which I can say that I’m really proud of.  There have been some close calls, and to be honest I’m not sure why they happened.  I eat the same thing for breakfast everyday – yet those sugar readings are all over the place which makes no sense to me.  Not to mention that I’ve had a couple of fasting numbers be at the very limit of “ok.”  I’ve found that drinking a small glass of milk and having two hershey kisses at night before bed really helps with my fasting numbers (and it gives me just the little bit of chocolate that I crave).

I’ve been going on at least one walk every day.  During the work week, I can usually fit one in after lunch for about 15 minutes, and then I’ll go on another one when I get home for about 40 minutes.

I’m hoping that all of this monitoring and work that I’m doing will affect the baby in a good way and keep him from getting too big.  I’ll find out tomorrow how my midwife thinks I’m doing.  And I have another ultrasound to measure the baby at my 38 week appointment (two weeks away), and hopefully I’ll only hear good news there!



Dear Poppy Seed –

Today we hit the 35 week mark, which means that you’re about the size of a honeydew melon.  All of the books and websites say that you’re pretty much done growing in length and are just going to be working on plumping up.  It’s now my job to ensure that we don’t go overboard on that front.  You’re also starting to run out of room in there.  When your dad and I first started to feel you move your dad would ask me where you were so he’d know where to put his hand.  Your dad asked me that the other day and I believe my response to him was “where isn’t he?”   Now it doesn’t seem to matter where a hand is on my belly, they’ll be able to feel you move.  Your dad often remarks about how strong you are when he’s feeling your kicks, and I do have to agree with him.  Your kicks can be quite strong and sometimes surprisingly strong.  I also think that you’ve dropped or have started to drop.  My walks for the past week have been so much easier to do since I’m not huffing and puffing all the way through them anymore.  I think that my lungs now have a little bit more breathing room (hehe).

Not a whole lot new with me right now.  I’m sleeping ok, but not great.  I’m waking up about 2 times a night now to pee, but other than those episodes it’s the only time I really wake up.  I’m moving pretty slowly too, and I definitely think that I’m waddling now.  I get tired pretty quickly and I have to take a whole bunch of quick rests during labor intensive task so that I can accomplish them, that is if I even get around to attempting them.  I’ve been having a lot of round ligament pain lately too.  And while those are sharp and can be quite painful, they only last a second or two, so they’re easily manageable.

I’m worried about you and me right now.  I’m worried that I won’t get the chance to carry you until you’re ready to come out.  I’m worried that you might get stuck coming out.  I’m worried that you could hurt or injure yourself during the birth.  I’m worried that I won’t be able to birth you and that I’ll have to have a C-Section to get you out.  I can honestly say that I’m trying my best to have my gestational diabetes stay under control so that it will have little to no effect on you, but I’m starting to get the impression that my best may not be good enough.

On a bright side your dad and I got to see you on an ultrasound yesterday.  I started tearing up as soon as you appeared on the screen.  You’re absolutely adorable!  I may make big babies, but I also make darn cute ones.  Your dad’s side of the family all think that you look like him, and my side of the family thinks that you look like me.  I’m curious to see your newborn photo compared to that of your dad’s and mine, and I only have a little wait until I get to do that.

I love you so much!  Keep growing (reasonably please), and I’ll see you soon!!

– Mom