Your personality is coming out more and more every day. You are becoming your own individual, and doing your very best to let us know what you like and what you don’t like. You get really mad at us when we make you use Baby Sign Language. You think you’re being incredibly clear as to what you want, but honestly the rest of us could use a bit more clarification. You have the worst temper in the world. It could seriously rival your father’s. You get so mad that your whole body tenses up, you throw yourself onto the floor, and just scream/cry and kick your legs and arms until you’re through. You also do not like to be touched when you’re in the throws of anger. You will move your entire body away from anyone who tries to touch you (even to comfort you). One the opposite side though, you’re also incredibly sweet, giving kisses and hugs to anyone you walk past. You love to snuggle, and will seek people out so you can sit in their lap while you charge your batteries. You smile and laugh all the time, and you smile is contagious and lights up the room. I love watching you grow and become your own person. This is an incredibly fun journey to watch.
You are becoming more and more mobile as the days go by. You can now go up and down the stairs without assistance. In fact, you were doing that so often that we were losing track of where you were. And, we got tired of going up and down the stairs 20 times in 2 hours, that we broke down and bough some baby gates to block off the stairwell. But, as of this morning, you’ve figured out that if you push and pull on it enough, that you can get it to slip loose and then crawl under it…….sigh….you’re too smart for your own good.
You have your 15 month Well Visit at the doctor’s office on Monday. I’m really curious about how much you have grown since your 12 month visit. I also have a few things that we need to bring up to the doctor while we’re there. 1) You still seem to suffer from acid reflux. I’ll hear you spit up, but it never ends up coming out, you just swallow it back down. Sometimes it seems to bother you, other times it doesn’t. 2) You have had a horrible diaper rash for the past 3 months now. We’ll get it to go away for a day or two, but then it will come back with a vengeance. I’ve stripped your diapers at least 5 times, we bathe you, lotion up your tushie with hydrating lotion. We slather you in booty balm. We change your diaper at least every 1.5 hours. We can’t get it to go away. It’s now blistering, and I’m wondering if it’s some kind of infection and that you might need antibiotics.
You’re still in Physical Therapy. You’re doing really well with it, but we have all noticed that you have a bit of a limp when you walk. Your left leg is much stiffer than your right, and as you walk more and more, it seems to just get more and more pronounced. You have your next PT appointment on Tuesday, so I’ll talk to your therapist and see what we can do to help that.
I love you with all of my heart Benjamin. You are amazing. Everything that you can do, everything that you’re learning, it’s incredible to watch. You’re incredible. I wish I had the words to express to you how much I love you, and how much you mean to me. I love you more than anything. I’d do anything for you. I want nothing but for you to be happy, and to find joy in the world and in your life. I love you with all of my heart, and I’ll always love you. I will always be your mother, and we will always be family.