Week 12

Dear Baby,
We’re in the final week of the first trimester! At 12 weeks you’re now the size of a plum! Most of your organ systems are in place and are now just working on developing. You’re arms are now long enough for your hands to reach your mouth, and your legs are now longer than your arms. Your reflexes are now working as well. Your fingers can open and close, your toes can curl, your eye muscles can clench and you are beginning to work on your sucking reflex!

It’s more the same with me this week. My nausea is still awful. My sciatica is still there and my boobs are still sore. I have a midwife appointment tomorrow to do our NT scan (to check for genetic abnormalities). I’m excited to see you on an ultrasound again, and I’m hopeful that I get to see you move. I swear that I’ve begun to feel you move already…

I forgot to mention it last week, but your dad, Gram and I got a jump start on your nursery and cleared it out of boxes and started to put it together. We still need a crib and to paint some furniture and the walls, but for the most part everything is in place. I’ll be even more excited as the room becomes more and more the nursery I envision in my head.

Keep growing and know that I love you!



Week 11

Dear Baby,
You’re as big as a lime this week! My goodness you’re growing! The cool thing this week is that your fingers and toes are no longer webbed. You’re also supposed to be moving a lot in there right now, and I swear every now and then I feel something. It’ll be really nice to know if a couple more weeks when I know you’re moving for sure.

Not much is new with me this week. It’s pretty much just more the same. I’m still nauseous and throw up a good bit. I am having some sciatica develop. It’s always on my left side, and always deep in my butt cheek. I guess I need to start taking it a little easier so that it goes away.

Thanksgiving is this week and I’m so excited about that. The whole family is getting together at our house to celebrate it. I can’t begin to express how thankful I am for you. I’m so excited to be a mom again. I’m excited to watch you grow and become the person you’re going to be. I love you!

Keep Growing.



First Official Prenatal Appointment 

I had a midwife appointment yesterday. Overall it went really well. 
The first thing they had me do when I got there was to pay my deductible…..that was fun. From everyone else that I talk to, they never have to pay anything until their 3rd trimester. My practice requires full deductible payment at your 10 week appointment.

Then I was weighed, I lost two lbs….yay morning sickness. My blood pressure is good. I got my flu shot while I was there, and then my midwife came in. We talked for a while about what kind of testing I want done during the pregnancy. So, I was given a list of codes and names of tests and I need to call my insurance company today to see what they’ll cover.  

We then talked about some things that have come up recently. My fasting blood sugars are high (110ish) so, I’m to eat a meal right before I go to bed to see if that helps. If it doesn’t they might put me on medication. I talked to her about the fact that my hair is seriously falling out (as in almost bald on top), and she sent me to the lab and I had 9 vials of blood taken to check a myriad of things – my glucose levels, thyroid, testosterone and a few other things I can’t remember. So I’m waiting on all of those results, and hopefully I’ll have them soon.

As far as the pregnancy is going, everything is fine. I heard the heartbeat yesterday! It was 181 bpm. No bleeding, no spotting, no cramping. So, I think things are really great. My nausea is still awful, and I’m really wanting that to go away…..I hate morning sickness. And, of course ever since I posted that I thought it was getting better, of course it comes to bite me and I’ve been throwing up several more times a day – hence the weight loss.

Right now I’m really looking forward to the weekend and then Thanksgiving break so that I can have a rest.


Week 10

Dear Baby,
We’ve made it tot 10 weeks! We are officially one quarter through the pregnancy, which means only 30 more weeks to go! This week you’re the size of a prune. You have working arm joints and your cartilage and bones are forming. All of your vital organs are developed and even starting to function. Your hair and finger nails are starting to grow as well. And, the really cool thing is that you’re starting to kick and move in there. I swear I’ve already felt a few of them, but with it being as early as it is, I’m only partially convinced it was you. I guess I’ll have to wait a few more weeks to know for certain.

What’s new with me this week? I think I’ve officially started to show. Which just seems ridiculous because I don’t think I started to show with Henry until sometime in late December. But, there is a noticeable bump right now. My nausea can still be pretty intense, and I do throw up most mornings. But, I think (fingers crossed and knocking on all wood) that it’s starting to lessen. At least I hope it is.

I have a midwife appointment tomorrow. They’ve told me it’s my first official prenatal appointment (although I’ve been to see her several times by now). I’m excited for it. I feel like you and I are on an adventure together. I’ll be honest and tell you I’m nervous about being a mother of two. I feel like I can barely figure out how to parent Henry let alone figure out how to parent him with an infant added in to the picture. But, we’ll have to figure it out together. As nervous as I am, I’m also really excited. I love babies. The snuggles, and cuddles. The smells and sounds….I just can’t get enough. I’m so looking forward to you being here.

I love you. Keep Growing,


Week 9

Dear Baby,
You’re now the size of an olive! While that still seems really small, it’s pretty amazing considering that just a few short weeks ago you were the size of an apple seed. Your placenta is forming, and will start taking over for your developmental needs within the next few weeks (which means I’ll be off of my progesterone suppliments soon). You’re moving around a lot, wiggling your fingers and toes. I can’t feel it yet, but I’m so excited to start feeling you move. This week you’ve also graduated from being an embryo, and you’re now referred to as a fetus. Regardless what the technical term is, you’re still my baby.  

I can’t seem to shake this morning sickness. The nausea level is just awful. I swear I always feel like I’m about to throw up. Like things are just waiting in my throat, and If I swallow or breathe wrong that everything will come back up. It’s only by sheer force of will that I’m not throwing up as often as I feel like I need to. The past several days have been really hard: 100% nauseous, 100% of the time. Beside the nausea, my bloating and gas have been a lot better, and I feel almost normal.

I’m really excited about this pregnancy. I’m excited for you. I can’t wait until we can start to put your room together, and start to make plans for you, and buy things for you. Beyond all, I can’t wait to hold you and marvel at you. I’m so excited for you to have a brother, and Henry is excited for you too. He says that he wants a baby brother and not a baby sister. But, if you’re a girl, he’ll come around. I hope you both are good friends and will always be there for each other.  

I love you so much, keep growing!


Week 8

Dear Baby,
This week you’re as big as a raspberry. Your fingers and toes are getting more defined and less webbed each day, and your tail is almost gone! The cool thing is that your taste buds are forming! I’ll try to keep things interesting for you in terms of what you taste.  

What’s new with me? Bloating and gas…..it’s not glamorous, and it might be TMI, but I am so gassy it’s not even funny. The sad part is that I don’t even have a dog I can blame it on this time….

My nausea is also just horrid. I’m waking up in the middle of the night because it’s so bad. I’m on anti-nausea meds, but they don’t seem to be helping so much. Or, if they are, I can’t even imagine how much worse it would be if I was off of them. I want to start taking some B6 to see if it helps, but right now I can’t handle swallowing pills…so, hopefully I’ll be able to start that soon.

We saw you on an ultrasound this past Friday. You’re growing like you should, and we even saw your heart beating away. They measured it at 159 bpm. Your dad teared up in the ultrasound room, and while I didn’t cry, I had a huge smile on my face and was so relieved. I’m so happy that you’re doing well. I’m going to do my best so that you keep growing like you should and that you get everything that you need. I love you so much!

Keep Growing,


Everything’s OK

I had my ultrasound on Friday, and everything is going as it should be! We saw a little heart beating and everything!! I cannot express to you have relieved J and I are right now. Thank you to everyone who has had us in your thoughts and prayers.  
According to the ultrasound tech, the baby was measuring at 7 weeks, 5 days. My estimation was 7 weeks, 2 days. So, that’s only off by 3. That officially changed my due date to June 12, which will mean that my letters to the baby need to be posted on Sundays, but since I’m usually too exhausted to do anything on the weekends, I’ll write my letters on Mondays now.  
I’m to stay on the progesterone supplements until I’m at 12 weeks, and that’s only 4 more weeks to go. My morning sickness is way worse right now. I spent all day Saturday asleep. I kid you not. I was asleep on the sofa for the whole day. I did wake up and shower so that I could take Henry trick-or-treating (pictures to come soon), but I’ve been just so nauseated that the only thing that helps is to be asleep. Although, even that’s not working so well anymore. I’ve been waking up in the middle of the night because I’m nauseated. How horrible is it to wake up to realize that the only reason you’re awake is so that you can throw up? That happened to me 2 or 3 times last night. I didn’t actually end up throwing up, but it was a miracle everything stayed down. I’m so looking forward to when my morning sickness is gone….