I’ve been crying all morning.
Henry started daycare today. I dropped him off at 7:30 this morning. He was happy and smiling when I dropped him off and too busy looking at everything to bother giving me a kiss (he can totally give kisses now!). I didn’t start crying until I was walking to the car alone, and then I bawled the entire drive to work. And I’ve only been crying at work when I think about Henry, so I’ve been crying basically the whole time.
I miss him. I miss turning around and seeing him smile. I miss working at my desk and hearing his squeals behind me. I miss taking time outs from work to get on the floor to play with him. I miss nursing him. I miss changing his diaper and making silly faces at him while I do so.
This sucks. Today sucks. I want my baby.
I know that he’s having a fabulous time today. I know that. I’m not concerned about his welfare. It’s just such a shock to my system to not have him with me. He’s been with me all day, every day for almost 6 months, and now I have to go the majority of the day without him.
This is hard. It’s harder than I ever thought it would be.