I’m not sure what’s wrong with me today, but I just feel exhausted, bone weary. To the point where I can’t get anything done at work today, and I’ve basically just been staring at my computer since I got here. All I want to do is put my head down on my desk and go to sleep, but of course I can’t do that. I’m really thinking of taking a half day today and going home to nap and rest. I’m starting to think that this is my reality check. That this is my body’s way of telling me that I can’t be busy and moving all weekend, and work late during the week and do all the things that I used to do before I was pregnant and expect to have my body react that same way now. I think that I’m going to have to start taking a few steps back from some things.
1. Make sure that I have at least one day of the weekend where I can sit and relax at home. That’s not to say that I won’t do a few things around the house, but I need to be able to stop and rest when I need to so I can have energy during the next week.
2. Stop eating dinner at 9 pm. For the past few days, maybe longer, J and I have been eating dinner around 9. I know that it’s too late, and because we’re eating so late it’s throwing the rest of my nightly schedule off, before this I was usually getting ready for bed at 9. The reason for eating so late is that 2 days a week J doesn’t usually get home until 8:30, and sometimes later, and I like to be able to eat with him. I know that I could have dinner ready and waiting for him the moment he gets home, and I’ve done that a couple times, but for the most part I’m just not that domestic. The other days of the week, I usually don’t get home until 6:30 or 7:00, and I need to get in some exercise, and so does J, which means we don’t start cooking until 8 or 8:30 and then don’t eat until 9. This week I’ve been trying to get to work earlier, leaving the house between 7:15 and 7:30 to get to work between 7:45 and 8:00, so that when 5:00 pm rolls around I can leave. That worked out fine on Monday, but Tuesday morning I had to go in late to work because our heating unit was being serviced – therefore I had to stay late that day to make up the time…and I’ll also have to do that the days that I have doctor appointments.
3. Sleep….This is something that I think I need more and more of, yet pregnancy sets you up so that you get less and less. It really is a horrible design flaw. It’s routine for me to get up once or twice a night to pee now. Usually between the 1am – 3am mark. The first half of my night I sleep like the dead. The second half doesn’t go as smoothly. Usually between 4:30 – 6:00 I’ll wake up 4 to 5 times. I’m not really sure of the reason for it. Maybe I’m not comfortable enough. Sleeping on just your sides really does start to make you sore. Other than that, I have no clue.
It feels weird to have to cut back on my life so much, but there’s really no way around it – at least not if I want to still function during the day.’
….Is it time to go home yet?